Frustrated with God
It took me about a month to admit I was frustrated with God.
What feels like a string of unanswered prayers, recurring feelings of emptiness, and hours upon hours of waiting… these things can breed frustration.
When this happens, we can (and will) try to hide it, but the only person we fool is ourselves. The one who “searches our hearts” can’t be fooled by our attempts of acting like everything is okay when it’s not (Romans 8:27).
My whole life I’ve always looked for a “silver bullet” solution to my frustrations. I want to find a new morning routine to take away my pain or listen to a podcast where a pastor tells me step-by-step how to deal with all my crap.
And there’s a place for that. Sometimes it works.
But what I’ve found is that silver bullet solutions usually don’t fix the problem. They only delay it for a time.
They temporarily deal with the pain, but they don’t actually heal you.
And so we live a life of ebbing and flowing out of frustration, numbing our pain through relationships, knowledge, TV shows, work, Instagram, etc…
And we don’t actually get healed.
That’s because healing doesn’t come from man-made processes. It comes from encountering the Creator.
It comes from day-by-day, looking the Lord in the face and following Him where He leads.
So it really comes down to a choice.
Am I going to believe what my feelings are saying about God?
Am I going to believe what my circumstances are telling me about how I should live?
Or will I believe the truth Jesus taught — that the Father’s heart is good.
That, in Christ, the Father is for me. That He loves to “give good gifts to those who ask Him”——even when my feelings say otherwise (Matthew 7:11).
Because at the end of the day, my own attempts to fix my frustrations end in failure.
And yet, true healing comes from walking with the Father.
It comes from sitting with Christ in the morning, and letting Him love you.
It comes from a lifetime of trusting, by the Spirit, the One who laid down His life for you.
There is no silver bullet.
He may not take away your pain, but He will walk with you through it.
And you’ll find that’s what you really needed all along.
